I have been wanting to write about Ethan's birth story for a while now, I just kept putting
it off because it may be a little long! But I am taking the advice of a friend and breaking it
into several parts! I hope you will come back to read the whole story, it is a true story of
God's hand being right in the middle of it all! :)
I want to start with how we got to the decision to adopt, I will try and keep it short! Kyle
and I got married in 2002 (I will tell our story in another blog!) and knew immediately
we wanted children. We were not getting any younger and decided to start trying quickly!
We were both 28, settled in our careers, had bought a new home and were ready for babies!
I have had several problems growing up with having endometriosis and complications that
come with it.We knew it wasn't going to be an easy road but were ready for the challenge! And
challenge it was! I went through several surgeries and as a result of having endo, I had both
fallopian tubes removed. IVF would be our only option. We jumped right in and did
our first In Vitro Fertilization (IVF) cycle and I got pregnant!!!!!!!! We were so very
excited but God had other plans. I miscarried at 7 weeks and we were devastated of course.
Thankfully we had several embryos that were able to freeze so we decided to not wait too
long and do it again, and again with no success. I was done. My body could not take it
anymore having to give my self shots daily, Kyle giving me shots and having to be stuck
every time I went to the doctor and gaining a TON of weight! It wasn't fun
anymore and my heart just wasn't in it. I knew deep down this was not God's plan for us, me
getting pregnant. Although at the time I was not OK with that and just kept asking why! Why
do all of my friends and family have babies, why is God giving people babies that can't take
care of them, why, why, why. I am not proud to say that I questioned God but it was where I
was at that time. I avoided baby showers, birthday parties, Mother's Day at church. It was
just too painful. I was so bitter that I almost couldn't function. I pulled away from everyone
except my husband, I just didn't think anyone had any idea of what I was going through inside
(although they did!). I was just in a very dark place!
But I still knew that God would not put the desires in my heart for the heck of it!!
Psalm 37:4. I knew I had to get through it and trust Him. We did our last IVF cycle in
August of 2004 when I told Kyle I couldn't do it again. We still had 2 embryos frozen but
decided we would take a break and do another cycle later. People had asked if we would
consider adopting and really we didn't think it was an option for us, looking back now it is
because we were not educated on the subject. I started doing some research and we decided to
look into it. By this time we had depleted all of our funds and were doing what we could to
pull money from different places, we were that determined to have a baby! In October of
2004 we contacted an agency and started the process of adoption. We had been told it
would take 6 months to a year but we were willing to wait. God again had another idea
and the following February we were blessed with our sweet angel Ethan Samuel Gibbs!
Because of God and this lady, we were finally blessed with the baby that we had
longed for, prayed for and waited so many years for!
longed for, prayed for and waited so many years for!
Stay tuned for part 2, it is so much sweeter! :)
Be Blessed!
Kim